I've been trying in my own strength to do a lot. I don't like feeling weak in God's presence
it's puzzling why it makes me weaker. its confounding that God's presence isn't just increasing joy.
maybe weakness is a door...
maybe its about feeling so secure in love and in being a blind servant
that I say yes before I see the next level,
the next sacrifice and
the next experience that doesn't make sense at first.