Quest

I've searched the city for you
I listen to each minute's echo
Between the winding familiar streets

I've searched the horizon for you
The waves speak to me in whispers
But your voice escapes

I've searched my heart for you
For a memory, a phrase, a song
Surely the heart remembers best

July thoughts

The last few weeks have felt like a mess of things, after processing yet another friend's death. Thinking about goals, going back to old hobbies, vision, travel plans; reading about discernment, introversion, more Jeannette Walls (both her books are excellent).

Some conclusions in the midst of these:
Sometimes decisions just come down to fear.
I'm often ready sooner than I think, and if I don't think about it and just do it I will get to the next level (of anything).
I have a few things I think I'm ready for that the doors are just not open yet. Not sure how to proceed with that.
I never have a right to be angry or assume, only to listen, be willing and set my own expectations- not based on the past or other people, or what they think. Small things, but necessary reminders.

A dream for my map

‎"Some conversations wake you up, others make you dream."

As I said, I've been thinking about all that is stirring in my heart and the good books I've read. I rephrase some of my goals as they change over time, and I came up with a new one today. For a while I've been craving learning to dream again, for my life, my future, my spirit, my place of influence. If I have one goal right now it is to learn to write so that others are inspired to dream. I don't want to dream unless it goes deep. (thinking dreams, not sleep dreams although understanding those is fine too!) The people who make me dream, even of things I think only they are special enough to accomplish, are people I crave. I don't even have a list of questions or problems or discussions to solve. I just want to be around them, to draw from their favor or anointing, doesn't matter what you call it. I could write with someone or ... I don't know. I have no idea how it will start but I don't want to let it slide away. Being a Vision broker, like Bruce talked about last year.